Dukkhas of Hazard
It has been building for a long time-- a disquietude, and uneasiness with the quality and substance of my life. In my visualized real life, i see myself spending more time outside, in the natural world, and more time in the world of ideas.
These two impulses are often conflicting. If i take time to read a book, or write something, I am removed, largely, from the natural world. If I engage in activity and the world outside, I am less involved in reading, and writing.
Sadly, the truth is that I have done too little of both. I am ready to change that. After experiencing the Hoffmann Institute, I developed a sense of purpose, but I have been slow to implement any real changes. One pattern, I've had in the past has been to bite off more than I can chew. I'm ready to reclaim my passport to the foreign lands of intellect and experience.
So, this blog. It will be about what I experience, in worlds both physical and mental, real and imagined. writing things down will help me aim for a rigor of thought, and a breadth of experience that will constitute a more full, balanced life.
posted by Seth @ 7:09 AM
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2 Comments:
lovely. You are lovely.
Any REAL changes are slow to implement. It takes time. Allow yourself this. The decision to make a change is a difficult component, but is often coated with motivation. When we finally commit oneself to make a change we usually come out with guns a blazin'. However, actual process of reclaiming life takes a tremendous amount of endurance. It has taken years to create the worn paths we are used to. So, repaving, if done correctly, takes time, but will need less repair in the future. And if our mode of transportation is intact, we will no longer put it on autopilot. Fear will no longer hold us back from detours. "Sometimes our only mode of transportation is a leap of faith."
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